The Guilt Begins.....

Im now starting to feel the shit that i obviously am.Why risk my families love?Why?
Im a selfish shit i suppose,i want to have it all.But the reality is i could end up with absolutely nothing in the end.
In the meantime i feel a fraud,a shadow of my former self but im so weak that im unable to stop this.
My dad would be evil if he knew about this-that i could risk my marriage!?!?

The deed is done.......

Quite simply put-disasterous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Terrible sex!!!!!!
So where we go from here ive no idea but she still seems keen.

What a Carry on!!

And thats just how its been really.Sneaking the odd kiss here and there,a bit of a fumble if the chance arises.The heat has definately been turned up though!There is a definate intention from us both where this is going.We are emailing and texting each otherin the evenings and at weekends,we both want each other so much.Now i can understand why i,a nearly 40 year old man,wants an 18 year old (ITS girl isnt it?not a woman?or is it?) female but why does she want me?I will be asking that question rest assured.She texts me from her bath telling me how soapy and slippy she is,how needs my cock,how she wants me.Jeeeeeeesus!!!!!

Anyway we are both away on a sales trip next week,one night only!!!!!!!!

The First Kiss

So we make sure that we are both needed to work late one night.It was electric,the anticipation was sky high charging through us like a bolt of lightening.

So we mover closer,i hold her,stroke her hair,our lips touch,our tongues dance together,pushing,probing.Everything is getting very very hot now.I slide my hand under her trouser waistband,into her panties,down to the most beautiful slippy,wet,warm,consuming valley of flesh.I ease her trousers down and start to taste that honey,oh my god this is heaven on earth......SHIT her lift is here early!!!!!!!!!

18 years old and gorgeous

And so to my latest distraction.About 9 months ago i started working with an 18 year old young woman and quickly thought how bloody lovely she was.Physically- a lovely bum,very nice small pert breasts and with a great personality.She cried one day to a few of her colleagues about the fact her boyfriend wasnt interested in her sexually and had told that she had put weight on recently.Im telling you she might be a size 12 but probably a size 10!AS for the sex-if you are not doing it like rabbits at 20 and 18 years old when the hell are you?!?!?!

So one day we are working and we end up getting very close physically-our bodies brush one anothers.Then its that look to see if the other felt what you felt,she did.

The Cheating Husband

Well i suppose thats me.Im a 39 yr old man in his second marrige.Im very happy in my marriage too,of course theres the odd thing but i love my wife and i adore my kids.

So why is it so hard not to cheat on my wife and have little flings here and there?Is it just the sex?Is  it my realisation that another woman finds me attractive and i cant let that pass without seeing what happens?

Ive always found being faithful hard in any relationship ive been in which is why im in my second marriage in a way.I love being in relationships so is it the having it all that i need ?